𝐂𝐎𝐍𝐓𝐄𝐌𝐏𝐎𝐑𝐀𝐑𝐘 𝐒𝐎𝐍𝐆: 𝗣𝗔𝗨𝗕𝗔𝗬𝗔 𝗕𝗬 𝗠𝗢𝗜𝗥𝗔 𝗗𝗘𝗟𝗔 𝗧𝗢𝗥𝗥𝗘





“Paubaya” by Moira Dela Torre is a heartbreaking song.

 

Moira Dela Torre was born on November 4, 1993, she came from a non-showbiz family. Her parents got divorced when she was a little girl. She lives with her mom who found a new love while her father is working abroad. The separation of his parents greatly affected her but despite that, her relationship and faith with God deepened. 

 

Moira went through various difficulties in her life like she went through Anorexia and Bullying. Despite the mockery she received, she forged it to make it her foundation in life. 

 

The art is all about “Letting go”. It's a great tragedy about loving someone and having them to let go when you're no longer the source of their joy.  Love isn’t just about how you feel butterflies in your tummy, it isn’t just about how long it will last, It is also about how to let go of someone you love so much and  despite having given them so much love, when you’re not the reason for their happiness you need to let go. In addition,  “Paubaya” is also about unrequited love, love that easily fades away, and one’s bravery  — brave enough to let go of someone they truly love and cherish.  

 

The original script of “Paubaya”  was wedding vows but she changed it into parting vows which fits in the song. She also said that she wanted to put the lines of the songs all throughout the “Patawad” album in the parting vows. 

 

“..the promises, the total forgiveness. Like a line in “Patawad, Paalam”,  ❛At ang huling pangakong maibibigay, na sa ating dalawa, ay wala nang sisihan.❜ (And the last promise I can give you is that, I will no longer blame you for whatever has passed.) And a  line from “Handa, Awit” by Brian Vee, which is my first track of my album. 


❛Handa na akong muling sumugal  (I am ready to risks again)

Handa na akong muling magmahal (I am ready to love again)

Handa na akong lumabas sa aking bangka (I am ready to get off this boat again)

Kahit ilang beses na akong nagtangka at lumubog (Despite the many times I tried and failed again) 

At nalunod sa kasinungalingan na ang pag-asa (And drowned in the lie that hope)

Ay isang pantasya na binubulag ako sa katotohanan (Is just a fantasy that blinds me from the truth)❜ but it’s not.” - she said in her interview.

 

The message of the artist that would like to convey is that, just because two individuals didn't end up together doesn't imply their relationship was a failure, and that we can also view and interpret it in a way where we learn from them, — that we learn how to love that person even if it's just for a short period of time. 

 

She also said, “We can choose gratitude over bitterness. We can choose joy over pain. We can choose freedom over guilt and we can choose love, and we can choose forgiveness.” 

 

Many people who were still waiting, many people chose how to forgive, many people chose to let go and set people free and entrust them to God’s hand — She wanted to let us know that we are understood, that we are not alone, and that even though we go through a lot of pain and suffering, we are not alone. She also added that all of these things you’ve done are not really successful if you do it alone or by yourself. And she believed that everyone of us needed to leave it to God — to surrender it to God, because he is the only one who can make things broken turn into a beautiful masterpiece again.

 

“Paubaya” has a different impact on me, sometimes it depends on my mood, Sometimes when I succumbed to loneliness and the endless abyss of what if thoughts, I often think the past or perhaps every time this song plays there’s a certain event in my life that keeps on playing in a huge white screen inside my mind — playing the deepest secret I tried to buried and forget. In the midst of a pandemic, anxiety and depression is more likely coming and knocking at my door and when it happens, I become afraid. My thoughts are wild and are kind of harmful. 

 

I kind of relate to the song because I have a person whom I loved the most, whom I planned to meet, whom I planned to spend the rest of my life with and whom I planned to walk a thousand steps for the rest of my life. But he turns out to be the person that got away. He, who built me when I was in broken pieces, the one who stays with me when I’m struggling, the one who lends me an ear when I’m singing the pain and suffering that I’ve experienced, and he, the one who turns his back and wave his hand to bid his goodbye when I was about to reach him. Everything went to chaos or perhaps I was pushed down to endless abyss — unable to climb up. The masterpiece he created was also destroyed by him. He was my everything, he’s all I’ve got that time when everything seems to be mad and black. I was shredded into pieces again, I was hopeless, and I kept it inside me. Until one day, when I made a decision to ascend to heaven, I cried. I’m lost. I lost myself while loving him. 

 

Looking back now, hearing this song opened the wound of yesterday. My eyes still glistened as I heard this, my heart may twitch but I wasn’t in unbearable pain anymore. Being locked up inside your home feels like prison with many duties to attend on. Because the world shut its door, as I've said earlier, both anxiety and depression will come knocking at my door , and as I listened to “Paubaya” my heart will twitched and twitched, my tears will rolled down my cheeks, and make me so hopeless but as I heard the last lyrics,  ❝Mahirap labanan ang tinadhana, pinapatawad, pinapalaya, pinapaubaya, ko na sa Kanya.❞ (I can’t go against destiny, But I forgive you, I’m setting you free, I’m letting you go and entrusting everything to God.) My heart starts to calm and be at ease, because I know everything happens for a reason and every suffering will not be fruitless. Everything I can’t do or manage, I will ask Him to guide and help me. Lastly, if I will lose myself again along the way, or if I will be broken again or perhaps be broken into  pieces or even dust, God can only turn it into such a wonderful and elegantly beautiful masterpiece. 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

References:

https://youtu.be/ckC4s6jMjWU

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AwhOrwom1NA&list=RDAwhOrwom1NA&index=1

 

 


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